And still I think of you

So, it's been almost a year since I last saw Dogstar live.
Is it possible to miss someone you've never met?
Probably not. Yet, I still find myself wondering how he's doing down there in Sydney. Hoping that he's not feeling frustrated at the delays in filming, hoping he's having a good time. Then shaking my head at myself.
Of course he is. He's working. Working on a project he loves, with outstanding people.
We should all be so lucky.

Days when I couldn't live my life without you.

I guess I have always been a fan of his but I never really thought about it.
I just went to movies.
The internet has changed fandom. Especially the expression and fellowship.
This site and blog are just an expression of admiration and an attempt at fellowship, like when I covered my walls and locker with pictures of Van Halen. It's just the 21st century now. I liked when I connected and made a new friend because "Hey! Have you heard Diver Down yet?", and I like connecting with people because "You know, I thought Hardball was gonna suck, but I liked it, too!"
You all rock. For someone that is still pegged as a "meathead" by many( but of course, we know better), Keanu has amazingly bright, and thoughtful fans.
Of course, I still have pictures on my walls. But they aren't cut out of magazines and taped or tacked.
My Hamlet poster is mounted and framed, as is my Dogstar Fillmore poster.
It's not idolatry...it's ART.
Because I'm a grown-up.

Even if I do still squeal at times.

Without you...

There really is an "out of sight, out of mind" factor. I have to admit, I haven't even thought of Kiefer in a while. of course, when 24's new season starts I'll rekindle that torrid affair.
I wonder if I would still think of Keanu every day if I didn't have the site, or wasn't online.
Or, you know....had a life.

Ah well, no sense in worrying about that for the time being.